Super Sunday

Saturday was not some ordinary time in a guy's life to forget so easily. Although it was bathing in the merth of my mom's birthday, it also had mixed emotions, high conflicts, tears in the eyes and tightening of bonds between frens.

We haven't met each other for a year now, and when we did, all the memories of old just came flooding in, filling our minds with the bitter sweet of our secondary school days in form 5, when innocence and ignorance still filled the air, when frens were best buddies, when teachers were pestering old hags that just won't let us be. At the same time, it was also when the school field was our playground, and it didn't matter if we got an A or a C for moral, because we never got past the 50 mark. Oh the nostlagia....

The party was a bomb, partly because my sister's new frens from Victoria Institution were occupying all my breathing space, and oxygen was so scarce that we hid crammed ourselves in the hall playing poker and watching Epic Movie. There was laughs, there were cries, and then there was Chee Kar who just 'suddenly-remembered-got-party-at-my-hs' and popped up out of the blues. The cake cuting ceremony ended with hus and kisses, and mom relunctantly let the bunch of us off to a drink at the nearby mamak stall.

My kai mui, or god-sis, the ever cute and gorgeous Wy-San (I'm not bragging, ask CK, he NOES, wakakakaka!) was there. My cousin bro, Tong Yuan who just got back from Kampar, during his first holidays from UTAR was also there, even Chun Leong was present, along side the other 'kampung' (in Chee Kar's words) of cousins and old school mates. Oh, and Li Qun, as well as Jason, who wasted my petrol to and fro from Cempaka LRT (kidding^^).

We headed for the mamak near Chun Leong's hs, which was on top of this little hill and boasted a magnificant view of Kuala Lumpur at night, complete with the night lights of orange, white and yellow. We sounded like we were in a circus, laughing our heads off, forcing everyone to share their secrets, talk about thier lovelives, and most importantly, cracking lame and obnoxious jokes that we all laughed for no reason (Lol).

It ended with more laughter, and the long lost feeling and bond that we thought was lost to the quagmire of time and space. It was still warm and we felt closer to each other than ever before. Well, dropped Wy San and Tong Yuan and the others home, Jason to the LRT, and ended up chatting with Chee Kar and Li Qun, who decided to stay for the night. So off to another mamak stall!!

It was around 1.10 am that time, and we chatted about our lives like we were never going to have a chance to. There were stories of our families, the hardships we went through, and the emotion sthat were already reaching boiling point. Another round of Maggi Goreng and Tea O' Limau later, it was myturn to spill my secrets, and after listening to thier advises, I learnt soooo much more about these two frens than I had for the past 5 years. It was amazing you noe... not seeing each other for like a whole year, but still being able to let go of our grudges, say our apologies, and achieve an understanding that is far beyond comprehension. It was like having a virtual sholder to cry on, and it felt raelly good. I can even remember what one of them said - 'love is like a match. All it takes is a spark to light it, and the first flames that are combusted will be the most beautiful. Let it continue to burn, and the flames begin to grow, leaving behind a devastating trail of destruction behind. Let it burn further, and it gets out of control, and its only a matter of time before you yourself would be consumed by the very flame that you thoight was so beautiful at first.' It was the little things like this that would have brought tears to my eyes, if it wasn't for Li Qun's expressions that were so fu**ing carefree, it could make a horse grin!

Well, we reached home at 3.30 am, and it was counseling, sharing and discussions all the way till the break of dawn. We palyed a game of Poker, and the winner can ask the loser any PERSONAL question, which had to be answered with sole truth and honesty. It went really well, each of us asking the questions to clear those doubts about each other that has been with us throughout the years. I finally knew that Li Qun had a secret that could make me change the way I look at him, and Chee Kar, well, was the ever critical fren that would question you about every darn decision you made in your life, and I hate to admit it, but he made damn good sense. Lol.

Ok, it was emo emo and very emo all the way, and then came the sunrise. Both the guys had to get some sleep, so they did.

I took to my room, shut the door, and for the first time in my form 6 life, felt tears brewing in my eyes. It felt really wierd you know, all those questions that you really wanted to know were answered, all those apologies you had wanted sooooo much to say. It felt... well.... comfortable, and yet, there was this sense of guilt and trauma, because from it all, you realise that your world is not the world you had always thought it was. It was like, well, you had grown up from that naive little kid in the school bag, listening to Mazlini's classes and waiting for PJ periods to come only to be foiled by the rain. It was more htan that now. Life has move forward. I haven't. And I know it. Maybe its because I never wanted it to end you, kow? This... tis feeling that you never have to worry about things if you don't have to grow up. The people I knew and trust were no longer there for me when I need them, but instead, the people I held so much grudge against, become the people I learn to respect.

Thx for this day. Thx for letting me kow how my life had turned out to be, and letting me kow how yours did too. I'll just have to snap out of it and move forward, no? ^^ Lifes more than just living. Its about learning to live, and living to learn. Only then, can we grow up.

PS: Chee Kar shud really start a book called 'A little fashion, A little Thoery, and A Whole lot of Life in a PotPuri'. Lol. And Li Qun really has to get a haircut, sheesh!